Nostalgia

Over the weekend, I was reminded of a video that my two best friends in college made for me for my 21st birthday.  Spring Awakening was my show-of-choice that year, I was an intern at the Atlantic Theatre Company.  Anyways.  We all lived together – well, Amy and I together, and Ian in the room directly above us.  We were inseparable.  It was amazing.  There was some tension, but in what tight friendship is there none at all?  Over the last year or two, we’ve all been in separate places and there have been certain things that have come between us but watching the video made me remember how much I love them, and how happy we all were that year.  Or that moment.  Or the night of my birthday.

Amy’s engaged now and living back in her hometown and I wasn’t very supportive at first, but something clicked recently and I’m happy for her, 100%.  I don’t know what is it that changed, maybe it was the video, maybe not.  All I want is for her to be happy and to see her smile like she does on the video she and Ian made two years ago.  So if this makes her happy, then that’s awesome and I’m there for her.  I want to be apart of it.

I have spent many minutes wishing we could go back in time to that moment but I realize that’s all futile.  The only wish that’s worthwhile now is hoping that we’ll all remain friends regardless of any differences in geographic locations or opinions.

I love these two people so incredibly much, and I’ll be waiting with baited breath until the next time we’re reunited.

I’m hoping that’s sooner rather than later.