That Job Offer I Declined

You know those job offers that you regret declining? This isn’t one of those jobs.

Back when I started teacher training, I was still a little bit in the mindset of “OMG NEED JOB STAT.” Meaning, I thought I’d need to have a job lined up when training was over, no matter what it was. So, I applied to a couple of jobs here and there.

I went on one interview for an entertainment(ish) company that was located in LIC. That was mistake #1. I shouldn’t have applied to a company in Queens. What was I thinking? I wasn’t. I was feeling desperate and like my options were scarce. 

It was a new position that was being created because their finance department was growing into a full time position (as opposed to one part time person). I listened as the executive spoke and he was a nice guy. The offices were very nice, but I left feeling like it wasn’t for me. He said they’d be making a decision by the end of the week. This also made me nervous. I immediately went online and started looking at other job postings. I had to know what else was out there. There was lots. And a lot of other positions called to me much more than the one that I was likely going to be offered.

I didn’t need to wait for Friday because I was offered the job the next day via email. When the offer letter came, I was excited by the salary but that’s about all. I had interviewed for one job and the offer letter came back with an entirely DIFFERENT job than the one that I’d interviewed for. I took the weekend to “think it over” and then declined on Sunday evening. The executive came back to me and said they’d offer me health insurance, too.

Uh, WHAT? You wanted me to run finance and HR and you weren’t going to give me health insurance from the get go? I said no, for a second time, and that was that. I wanted to say, “Are you fucking insane? Not only is it illegal, but how could you possibly even think that hiring someone full time and not giving them health benefits is RIGHT?” But I didn’t want to engage, so I didn’t say anything. 

Thinking about having to start that job next Monday gives me hives. I’m glad I turned it down. When I find the right gig, I’ll know. And they’ll probably offer health insurance from the get-go. 

So many little things.

1) The amount of happiness that I have inside for when I do stupid little things like take out multiple bags of trash, hang out clothes, or unload the dishwasher is unbelievable. I hate doing these things so much but not doing them drives me insane too. Sometimes I think I was better at adulting when I was in college. 

2) I start my new job tomorrow. I’m not really nervous – more excited than anything else – and I’d like to keep it that way! This is the first time I’ve ever transitioned between jobs. Usually layoffs occurred, or an internship ended, but I’ve never had the privilege (or stress) of saying thank you for everything but I’m leaving to one job and starting a new one. I’m still going to be working advertising so I think I’ll wear a black dress with my teal blazer. I would’ve gone to TJ Maxx when I got back to the city but they closed for the day. 

3) Happy opening to The Cripple of Inishmaan tonight! I’ll be seeing you on Tuesday night with a friend that I haven’t seen in way too long.

4) I think I’m going to have to go see Hedwig again very soon (or you know, attempt the lottery again soon). The original off-Broadway cast recording has been bringing some tears to my eyes lately. (Read my review from last weekend here.)